I’ve been really depressed lately. I’ve become very unmotivated, worried and somewhat scared. I don’t want to worry people with my problems yet I want someone to love and listen to me and support me at the same time. Does that make me selfish? I feel sorry for myself too much which in turn makes me feel weak. I put on a happy face but deep inside I just want to be loved and cherished forever without all my fears of someone leaving me and realizing I’m not worth their time and kick me to the curb. That’s how it’s always been for me so it’s hard for me to trust and open up to people. I feel so fucking pathetic. I just get so lost in my own thoughts and emotions all the time and it brings me down. I just want all this negative emotion to go away and let me live my life pain free. So there’s the truth to anyone who may be listening.
Always be thankful for those who are in your life and can always make you smile and laugh and be happy no matter what kind of day you’re having. They understand and support you no matter what and most of all, they don’t judge you. Those are the kind of people you want to keep around in your life. Because they make YOU a better person.
I may not be dating a man right now but I have to say that I am thankful for all my guy friends, especially one. We can talk to each other about anything and I feel so lucky to have a friend like him.
I wish I had someone to love and adore me on Valentines Day tomorrow.
I just want to give it right back to him, whoever he is. It’s hard being a romantic on Valentines Day.
